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Today was the first day of my grieving process through my journey with cancer.  All of a sudden a blanket of sadness and despair fell over me when I woke up from my nap this morning.  I long for my old life, my life free from sickness.  I long for having a normal day.  I long for doing whatever whenever I want.  I called my mother.  And she listened to me grieve.  I called my father, too.  And he listened to me grieve.  I am so thankful for my parents.  And in the midst of it, my eric called.  Just checking in.  And he listened, too.

Today was a hard day.  But I have much to be thankful for 1) I am alive, 2) I have my nausea under control -- my friend Monica is struggling with this, and 3) I have a disease that most people have heard about and understand -- my friend Leita is struggling with this.

Shine bright, firefly, shine bright.

Just some thoughts . . .

10/10/10